some times I wonder when this cut in my heart will get healed...I don't know why my heart teared in the first place..may be because he was my first love....I don't know why when I think about him and his new girlfriend I still feel the pain..its wiered...its as if I can actually feel the sword straight in to my heart...I am still ignorant in the matters of heart...I try to forget...try to logically explain...tried to replace him...but seriously emotional issues are totally irrational...for engineers like me, it doesn't make sence..but really I don't know why...It is a big question mark in my mind...why is it so hard to talk about it...do you think I should talk to him...or should try to do what I have been trying for the past 2 years?